hi
The reason why this post was late was because I was making something for my main yesterday. I didn't forget about Luna V3.
On monday there was an event meant for gay people (me) that I went to. It was for graduates, but anyone (in the [college] community) could go. A lot of people were there, including some I recognize.
I don't have too much to say on the event, but it did help me forget some of my problems for a while.
Prior to it, I met with [someone] in regards to my horrible peformance in class. Not saying I normally do bad, but this entire class has had some of my worst performance ever so I had to do something about it. The takeaway is that there's bascially nothing I can do at this point, which has killed my motivation to work on classwork. What a solution.
On Tuesday, I did a follow up with someone else and I didn't get a major takeaway from that other than to just wait.
Honestly, I'd rather just leave and do my own thing rather than continue to be constrained by education. Staying doesn't do me any good. It's asking for too much from me.
On Wednesday... nothing of note happened that I can report on. Yes, I did do things on Wednesday, but it is something I'd rather keep private.
On Thursday, mainly worked on stuff for my main and held off on academics up until until now. I know it is important for me as a person in society, but I just don't bother doing it when I have stronger interests elsewhere that don't make me extremely anxious or depressed. I'd rather this not be the case, but it is what it is.
Leaving [college] would also mean leaving some of the remaining people in my life though. I would still have friends to talk to online, but I would only really have one or two people left in real life. It makes whatever choice I end up making feel worse than it should be.
I wish this wasn't the case.